Sad...

I just wanted to have chatting time with him. I took a bath qucikly and back to my pc. He already? I dont know but he was maybe talking to his friend. He doesnt need me when he has friends. I am like a tool when he is sad and lonely. I am lonely and sad now. He doesnt know how much happy when I talk to him. Anything my wrong? I dont like the his friend actually. Is it going well if I dont like his friend?

just 2 years ago

just 2 year ago

Nov 27; I got messeges from stranger on skype. I didnt know him at all. We chated for a while and figured out our first meeting. Before meeting, he sent me his picture. He is completely non-japanese. We met each other the next day.

Nov28; Our first meeting. I still remember this day. Shibuya hachiko at 2 pm. I was so nervous to meet him but now think back about it, I am so happy to meet him. Really nice to know him.

Now I can say from my heart... I love him.

Still waiting...

September is almost over. Just one thing, I wanted to spend time with him on his birthday and I wanted to give my handmade something for him. I thought I could see him this month but we couldnt see each other this month. October is coming soon. I know we can see each other newxt month but it is very hard to wait for him for almost a month. I realized that I need him in my life. I dont know if he thinks same way. Something happen when we see each other? I hope he thinks same way. I really miss him. I need him. My heart is full of "missing him". I am still waiting for him. And he is also waiting to be back here and see me. I will jump anf happy when I get his back informetion. CANT WAIT!!!

Found Him!

Last night(on 19th early morning, It was 1 am)I finally found him on the net! I was so so so happy to see him online. He replyed to my old messeges. I miss him and he misses me. He said he is gald that I miss him. I heard his voice. It was very sexy voice. *blush* I want to hear his voice near my ear. I love it. *blush* I knew he couldnt come back in this week but we can see each other in next week. He is already ready to leave there and see me. I am very very very very very looking forward seeing him. So excited! I want to jump in his arms and I want to kiss him and I want to feel his tempreture and I want to sleep next to him, in his arms. Oh I miss him a lot! I will see him as soon as he arrives. I cant think my life without him. No Him, No My Life! I love you my big sweetie. *kisses and hugs* good night *star*

I havent seen you for 3 days

Where are you now? No email, no message, no call from you for 3 days. Have you been busy these days? I want to quit thinking of you but I have been thinking of you all day crazy. Just give me messege, only hi is fine, please give me something to know you are doing well there. I am missing you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

answerS

i need to come back to tokyo and have my nurse give me a bath and a massage.
------I need to get you in my arm ASAP OR I will be crazy without You. I will give you a bath and a massage, just for you.

i will be very very very happy when im on the plane comeing home to tokyo.
------Come Back! Tomorrow!

(about my graduation)You will do fine.im sure your so fucking smart.
------I want to graduate!

then we can go sailing on my gient boat right?
------Yes I have 1 month holiday in March. I want to go sailing. I have never had sailing experience.

hopefully less then a week from now.
------less than a week? Noah! in 3 days! I cant wait to see you anymore. I need you. I want you.

good night im going to bed with thinking of you...

I really need...

Hugs From Him!!!!! I dont want to sleep without him. When can I sleep next to him? When? Do you know what I want to know? It is Date you are back. I cant wait! I need you right now! 2 weeks is long for me. I am going to bed, night sweetie. xxx