tired, not sleepy and must get up at 5am

tired because of heavy homework. not sleepy because I slept till 11pm yesterday. and I must get up at 5 am to watch football game VS Germany! Excited! Good night... zzZZZ

Feel Sick! BaD!

Feel Sick! Feel Sick FEEL SICK! I HATE IT!

Thought about it last night

I thought about it last night. The decision is not to email him. I am waiting for an email from him one more month. Sometimes it is hard to wait for somethings and it makes me crazy but be patient again. I will see... And I am busy on my school. I have to do my 10 homeworks! I dont have time to waste. Well, I must go now. DO my hoMwWorK!

Why don't you email him?

If you want to talk to him just email him, then tell him about your feeling. He will try to contact you on skype and chit chat with you. Oh but your pc at home has crashed. Maybe it is working when I got home. Don't think about him anymore. Just email him and tell your feeling. Do you want to hear his voice? Do you want to spend time together on Skype or something? I know your feeling about him. You are thinking of him all of time. I know you are missing him very much. Just email him! Why dont you email him now? Or you are thinking that he dont like me anymore? I dont think so. He dated with you over 10 times! If he want to be friends with you, it is okay for you? Yes, I know your answer. You are fine with it. Dont be afraid about it. You are Nic Leprechaun, arent you? Leprechauns, they are looking of you everyday. You have very nice Leprechauns! Just email him. Did you understand? JUST EMAIL HIM. He would be happy to hear from you. It is nothing wrong emailing him. Be optimistic and have big Confident! You are beautiful girl.

Sleepy and Missing

I am always sleepy. Spring makes me sleepy. I like sleeping but I have to get up early when I have classes. I hate this. :-P Today it is 26th May 2006. It has taken 1 month and almost 2weeks. I'm gonna be crazy. I can not be patient anymore. When are you coming back here? I am missing your voice and your smile and .... all of you. I am still waiting for your phone call. I just want to spend time with you. Let me know when you have time. I love you. xoxo

Dont wanna do anything.

Recently, I have not wanted to do anything. I have no power. I am going to school from April but now I dont enjoy school at all actually. All has started from my dearest grandmother's death. I had never lost someone who is very important for me. I am missing her very much. How can my this feeling change? It is Time? Time make me feel better? I dont know because I didnt have experiences like this. Not healthy. What should I do? I am very tired of smiling when I talk friends, people etc. I dont want to wear mask anymore. Very stressful. Maybe friends could think that I am not friendly anymore. But I dont try to smile when I dont want to smile. It makes me tired. When you lost someone in your life what did you look like? I mean how did you work yourself? Crap my English! Well, one more thing, I need to see him right now. But he is not here. I hope to see him again soon. I am also missing him really. Why doesnt he have special feeling about me? It doesnt matter... I just want to spend time with him. I need him.

Rainy season is coming soon

Tsuyu is coming soon in Japan. I dont like this season very much because I have to bring an umbrella in this season. I like raining but it is almost everyday I am tired of it. However, this rain is very important to grow up all of plants. It makes fresh green babies. Thats why I like raining in Tsuyu. Dont you think fresh green babies are very beautiful? Nobody cannot make this color. Nobody.