Still waiting...

September is almost over. Just one thing, I wanted to spend time with him on his birthday and I wanted to give my handmade something for him. I thought I could see him this month but we couldnt see each other this month. October is coming soon. I know we can see each other newxt month but it is very hard to wait for him for almost a month. I realized that I need him in my life. I dont know if he thinks same way. Something happen when we see each other? I hope he thinks same way. I really miss him. I need him. My heart is full of "missing him". I am still waiting for him. And he is also waiting to be back here and see me. I will jump anf happy when I get his back informetion. CANT WAIT!!!

Found Him!

Last night(on 19th early morning, It was 1 am)I finally found him on the net! I was so so so happy to see him online. He replyed to my old messeges. I miss him and he misses me. He said he is gald that I miss him. I heard his voice. It was very sexy voice. *blush* I want to hear his voice near my ear. I love it. *blush* I knew he couldnt come back in this week but we can see each other in next week. He is already ready to leave there and see me. I am very very very very very looking forward seeing him. So excited! I want to jump in his arms and I want to kiss him and I want to feel his tempreture and I want to sleep next to him, in his arms. Oh I miss him a lot! I will see him as soon as he arrives. I cant think my life without him. No Him, No My Life! I love you my big sweetie. *kisses and hugs* good night *star*

I havent seen you for 3 days

Where are you now? No email, no message, no call from you for 3 days. Have you been busy these days? I want to quit thinking of you but I have been thinking of you all day crazy. Just give me messege, only hi is fine, please give me something to know you are doing well there. I am missing you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

answerS

i need to come back to tokyo and have my nurse give me a bath and a massage.
------I need to get you in my arm ASAP OR I will be crazy without You. I will give you a bath and a massage, just for you.

i will be very very very happy when im on the plane comeing home to tokyo.
------Come Back! Tomorrow!

(about my graduation)You will do fine.im sure your so fucking smart.
------I want to graduate!

then we can go sailing on my gient boat right?
------Yes I have 1 month holiday in March. I want to go sailing. I have never had sailing experience.

hopefully less then a week from now.
------less than a week? Noah! in 3 days! I cant wait to see you anymore. I need you. I want you.

good night im going to bed with thinking of you...

I really need...

Hugs From Him!!!!! I dont want to sleep without him. When can I sleep next to him? When? Do you know what I want to know? It is Date you are back. I cant wait! I need you right now! 2 weeks is long for me. I am going to bed, night sweetie. xxx

I think I am happy 24 years old.

My cousin left last night. We had fun time. I already miss them but I will see them in 2 weeks. Last night I talk to my penguin and his sister but I was sleepy so it was not conversation, I just did nod. His voice always makes me happy and on the other hand it makes me to miss him. I think I am going to be crazy without him for 3 weeks. But he seemed to be happy with his family so I am happy for him. I am looking forward to seeing him in 2 weeks. I miss him a lot.

I Want His Baby Someday. It is my first time to think having someones baby. Someone is Him! It proves that I really love him and I want to have my and his babies. I want 3 babies! Can I? Just thinking about it in my mind. I am super happy if he thinks about same thing. Do you?

Having good time with my cousin from 4th

I am having good gtime with my cousin again. They came here again. They are so good girls. They love cooking. I like cooking with them. I am always thinking about my big boy but while I am spending time with them I can be away from thinking about him. Night on 5th I talked to him on skype. He sent me many nice pictures. Iam so happy that he is also having good time with his sister's family. When I saw his pictures I almost cried. I Do Miss Him. When I heared his voice Oh, he has really nice voice. I want hugs from him. I want to be next to him. My cousin talked him and they enjoyed to talk to u . We had good time with him through webcam and microphone on skype. I hope talk to him soon. I am still having good time with my cousin. I will miss them when they went home. *sigh* I have to do my paperwork!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont like the paperwork. Ouch!

Fun Night with my cousin

My cousin came visit my family yesterday. I meet them very often recetly but youger girl 17y/o is always busy with her school and part time job but she also came here yesterday. She looks older because of much make-up. We had dinner and enjoyed my aunts' trip pictures. I love talking to them. I had good time with them.But more than me, my grandfather had good time with them. He is not speaktive after my grandmother's death. If his attitude to my grandmother was nice our attitude to him would change but I am sorry I cant be kind to him. I really cant...

Today, I didnt do anything. I have to do my last paper work and have to visit and look at some hospitals for my full time job from April. Well, I will do something tomorrow. Finished lazy life!

He left on 29 August and it is 3rd September today. I havent seen him almost a week. I feel longer than a week. When can I see him next time? Can I say Happy Birthday to him by face to face? What do I want to give him as birthday present? No idea. If he was not back by his birthday what do I do for it? No idea. Thinking....... At least I want to hear him once in 2 days. What are you doing now? I am always thinking of you.

Okay I am really going to use this thing again !!

Keep my diary everyday!!!
It is September from today. He left for New york city again on 29th Augast. This time He doesnt know when he can be back to Japan. Maybe 3-6 weeks he will stay there. When I spend time with him I forget how I am lucky to have him sometimes. When I left his apartment and said good bye for a while, I cried. I promised not crying when we leave each other but I couldnt. I dont want to leave him. I dont need to cry. I can see him in 2 month. While he is not in Japan I should study my school work. But everyday I am waiting for him on skype. I had bad day yesterday but I talked to him on skype. He always makes me happy. I really like him so much. I think about my future very often. Will I am with him after 2 years, 3 years, 5 years, forever? There is one thing I worry always in my mind. It is age diffarence. I am 24 now, I turn 25 in this year. He is 44 this year. So we have 19 age diffarence. But I dont feel this age diffarence. Absolutely, he is mature than me. Dont I need to think about it? Love is love, age is just number. Nothing what I worry with him. I want to have his baby someday. We will see....

I am listening to Elliott Yamin. He has nice voice. :-)